Hello! My name is Mary and I am a single 18 year old mother to a beautiful 5 week old baby.
I love my son with all my heart but like so many wish i would have had
him 5 years down the road to a man that i was married to. I can not
give my son the cool toys every other kids have, I can not give him the
father that he deserves because he's not around anymore, i can not give
my son alot of things that he deserves and that makes me sad. I can
only give him all my love and raise him to not make the mistakes that
his mother made.
Like so many teenagers i thought that drugs and sex were cool,
so thats how i lived my life. I was not care free, i was reckless. I
started dating a guy and are relationship was based on sex. Those are
the worst relationships to have. We broke up because we had nothing in
common but physical attraction. 6 weeks later i found out i was
pregnant. He said that he would be there for me. He lied. I had to face
the world alone and pregnant.
I had the support of my mom and
my best friend which helped, but every pregnant women needs the father
to stand by her to make it really ok. I struggled to save up enough
money by myself working 50+ hours a week and that was hell since i was
pregnant. Many of my friends deserted me cause what teen wants to hang
out with a pregnant girl? For 9 months i lived in fear and excitment of
what was to come, but mainly fear.
Finally the big day came.
For all who girls who are having sex, i want you to realize that labor
is the most pain you will EVER experience. I will say that it is worth
it once you look into the innocent eyes of your baby for the first
time. Raising a baby is hard. I have no time to socialize with the few
friends i have and what money i have goes to diapers and formula. You
will be sleep deprived and that once beautiful figure you had is
replaced with huge hips and str etch marks...battle wounds as i like to
call them. I can't say this for all cases, but in most the father will
not be there. My son has not seen his father since the day he was born
and i could've prevented that had I waited until I was married.
I would not give up my son for the world but i will never be able to give him the world, and every child deserves that. So
if you care about your future children you will wait. And don't think
that protection works, cause i used protection and it obviously didn't.
good luck!
